Understanding the Understood

Giving Up The Impossible

February 23, 2008

Giving up on something impossible

What a nice feeling

Relief setting me free to explore

Maybe I will find something possible

But for now I will just live

Give up the chase

It is exhilarating and agonizing

Right now I will gladly feel nothing

Understanding the Understood

January 23, 2014

I don't understand

Words unsaid are banned

Everything we've planned

Is like trying to swim through sand

Hours can feel so bland

The dying fire is never fanned

Wanting to run but doing nothing but stand

The unreachable always seems so grand

We need to rise up and demand

Ourselves to expand

So I can understand

Words erupting cannot be banned

Take what I've planned

Remain tall on that sand

So the hours don't feel bland 

Use all my strength to get that fire fanned

Sprint instead of stand

Live in my reality that I can make grand

Because I did demand

Myself to expand

Tied

Endless Coveting

February 21, 2008

Wanting something you cannot have

Shouldn't be something that you want

Hopes rushing every morning

Just to go down with the sun

The agony should chase away the desire

But I catch myself chasing

What turns out to be agony

Goodbye tonight

Maybe I will have you tomorrow

Tied

January 13, 2014

Witnessing the struggle in your eyes

Inner demons urging me to pause

Hands stay fixed by my sides

Seeing you dragged further into its jaws

Noticing as our bond gradually divides

I'm in anguish, but I know not the cause

That I cannot react and be able to provide

Conflicting pushes from two contrasting moral laws

Finding lies to comfort you and to help me hide

Deception, the act, I deserve an applause

This performance I feel no pride

My terrible gift I use to mask my flaws

Pain from past years I beg to subside

So I can run to your aid as I formerly was

Help me slowly become untied

Night to Day

Narrow View

February 18, 2008

Yesterday my eyes only saw the North

So I started walking on that course

But today I can only see South East

I know that only that direction I will find peace

But wait, I am catching glimpses of West

I can't tell, which direction is best?

I need to see all around me today

So I can decide which path I should stay

Night to Day

January 14, 2014

Darkness turning to light

Forces my eyes open

Illness courses through me

Pretending it's not so

The light in the darkness

Open reluctant eyes

Me fighting the illness

No change from pretending

     Move slowly through this house

     Shadows becoming sane

     Noise becoming the norm

     Dreams to reality

     House slowly waking up

     Sane, no hint of shadows

     Normal sounds and noises

     Reality to dreams

          Smiling face looking up

          Sets my stomach at ease

          There's no hint of the pain

          I can accept the day

          Looking up to smiles

          Ease my upset stomach

          My pain has stopped hinting

          The day I can accept

The Resolution of a New Year

Yours, Mine, Yours

February 17, 2008

We are all people with our own lives

Striving to be that person with their life

Holding onto their future

Ending on the other side of the world

But I want your life and future

Someone wants mine

Circling the globe in endless searching

The Resolution of a New Year

January 3, 2014

Can I grasp it in my hands

Manipulate, twist to my aspirations

If not I must withdraw

Turn my head and forget

The raging ache pounds on the door

Demanding that I acknowledge its effect

But I mad a resolution

To turn my head and forget

Time rushing by much too quick

All of my balls fly through the air

I must allow the black to fall

And turn my head and forget

Lifting You Makes Me Strong

Reading Their Eyes

February 15, 2008

The look in their eyes 

As the entertainment explodes

All eyes starring in awe

Captivated by the moment

All I see is their eyes

The yearning for success

I close my eyes

All I see is failure

Lifting You Makes Me Strong

December 27, 2013

So much pressure obligated me to stay in place

One in too many options could elevate me

Giving up shined brighter

Hand curled in and away from the impossible decision

Hiding felt so good

But

Today I stumbled across you

I will not neglect you again

No one can accomplish this for me

I will become capable of lifting this weight

Removing it from my shoulders

Distant from ears and mind

I can be self-sufficient

I can be strong